Just Hold On Like You'll Never Let Go [p]
Firestorm Ultimate Predator: Inactive | Burn Baby Burn | Monkey’s Paw ___________ pp perms given by @Alchemist Kitsune @Fish and @taillow | Please let me know if any adjustments need to be made. Additionally, this takes place after the joint battle with the minks Lyrics borrowed from Forest Blakk's "If You Love Her" Love Noun: an intense feeling of deep affection A great interest and pleasure in something Verb: To feel deep affection for someone To like or enjoy something very much In a sense, love could be interpreted in a lot of different ways. In addition, there were many different ways you could love. An example being, if one were to love eating a certain food, maybe they would go out of their way to make sure they had it every night. Perhaps if someone loved their pet, they’d make sure to try to give them a long and comfortable life. Then there was love for another person. The kind of love that makes you do stupid things because you want to see that special someone smile, or the kind of love that has you want to be with them 24/7 and never want to leave their side. The list could go on and on, but what really matters is that it’s all Love.
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https://warriorcatsonline.com/forums...ictureid=41664 | Lightningstorm | Flock Together [Tier 3] - Inactive | Mind Reader - Active It had been lonely in her den ever since she had forced her away. Firestorm had not been happy, but at least she had understood it was for the best. Or at least the lithe calico certainly hoped so. The medicine cat's den was no place for the kits to be born in. To grow up in. They should have friends. Meet others in the nursery. Hopefully be accepted by the vultures of the clan. It would raise their possibility to survive. To not grow up to simply be that medicine cat's kin. She would hate for them to grow up in her shadow for so many reasons... The more she thought about it, the more she was convinced this had been the right call for their sake. Despite having been awake and alert, Lightningstorm had grown accustomed to the solitude once more. Had learned to deal with the lack of steps, of life... of anyone, really, buried here with her. Spottedpaw's arrival had been a surprise, but even that had been tame compared to the twist her insides gave at the news. They were here. The kits were here. Never had she felt such a conflicting storm of emotions before. An unfettered glee that their little ones would soon join them. That they would have a family! That Firestorm would be a mother, just like she had wished... and that she would be a part of it! But that trepidation refused to let go. The knowledge of their origin... of the dark forces that had allowed her precious family to be formed. It was terrifying, and a wretched part of her mind kept screaming at her. Telling her to not let her guard down. Because nothing good could come from the Dark Forest. She ignored this feeling, for once grasping on to the positives. She would not allow her own sense of foreboding... her paranoia to get the better of her. This was Firestorm's day. Their kits' day. Not even the Dark Forest could ruin that. Nodding at the request to bring burnet, the healer grabbed one of the pitiful amount she had left while making a mental note to send for more later, and she was gone. Swift as the wind, a WindClan cat through and through in spite of her claims to the contrary. The nickname the silly molly had once intended as an insult escaping her lips, Lightningstorm couldn't stop the nervous smile that played at her lips as she set the burnet down. The ginger tabby was tired. Too tired. She'd been through enough of these. Enough kitting queens to know that this was... not how they started. It wasn't until a few of the kits had been born that they started showing those signs of fatigue. But then... Kitten had always been able to stomach less pain than she liked to laud. It would be fine. She had her burnet. That would keep her strength up. And if she needed a rest, the spotted lass would be more than happy to help with the kits while her lover rested. She had no idea how many there would be, but she would watch over them. The clan could wait for a few hours while the queen took a nap. "Already tired, love? Kits haven't even come 'round yet. Here I was, thinking your energy was infinite. Guess the kits take after me if they can already get you this exhausted, wouldn't you agree?" she purred, nuzzling the molly, hoping her remark would kindle some of that stubborn, hot headed, competitiveness in her and keep her awake. As long as she was conscious, everything would be fine. The kits began coming, the first one a lovely cream and orange tabby... a kit Lightningstorm would have praised Firestorm for... if not for what came after. The blood... the damned blood. It had been moons since the medicine cat had seen so much blood in a kitting. The last time this had happened, the queen had been ignored by all other cats, despite her giving birth in the middle of the clearing. She had been a new apprentice then, and her pleas for help had gone unheard. No one came to her aid. No one cared that a helpless queen was bleeding out, or that only one of the four kits were alive. She wasn't an apprentice anymore, however, and she would be not standing idly by. But... but she had no mushrooms. The patrols never came back with them in typical WindClan fashion. Gritting her teeth, she turned around, spotting the lynx point there with them - she'd forgotten about the company for a moment, her concern too high - and pleading once more for help, her voice high pitched with fright. "Bravebird, I need moss! I... I need to stop the blood. Just rip some from the nesting materials pile. We don't have time to lose!" Even as she begged for the help, she knew it was hopeless. Firestorm was growing weak. Too weak. And there was nothing she could do. She was pointless here. No matter what, Lightningstorm would always hate attending the birth of kits. There was nothing she could do other than offer the queens some strength and pray for the best. Because it was out of her paws. If something went wrong, there was precious little a cat could do. She could not revive a stillborn. She couldn't stop the bleeding that would lead to the mother's death. To her mate's death. All she could do was pace back and forth. Mutter herbs and what they could do under her breath. Wonder if a combination of any of them together would somehow provide a miracle cure. But at the end of the day, there was nothing more she could offer other than apologies to the ones who survived. The ones who were left behind. "Come on, Kitten," she whispered softly, laying down besides the warrior, her voice cracking despite her best efforts to keep it upbeat and positive. "You are fine. You are going to be fine. Once the little ones are born, you are going to see them and name them and... and I won't even bite your tail when you inevitably settle on naming one after your ol' grandad. Only nibble a little. How's that sound?" Words of reassurance left Firestorm's maw, and Lightningstorm couldn't help the confused glance she sent her mate's way. What was she getting? She had this? She had this?! Did the molly truly not realize what was going on? Not understand that she was... that this cursed wish had... Damn it all to hell, she couldn't even think it, let alone accept it! No, no no. The tabby was strong, right? She had a dream. To be a deputy. She was going to be deputy someday. And then their kits would be the light that would push her forward to accomplish those goals. To be a good deputy and keep the clan safe for everyone, because that was the kind of cat she was. A deputy with a heart of gold that every kit could look up to and aspire to be like! She would not die here. Not like this. Not before she had accomplished her dreams. I'm sorry. It was as if the air had been knocked straight out of her lungs. Like if she was drowning in a river of darkness with no light in sight. I'm sorry. No, she couldn't be. She wasn't! Firestorm would never quit! She didn't know the meaning of the word! Oh stars! Why?! I never thought things would end up like this between you and me. But I did... "No. Don't say that... It's not... It's not going to end like this. You know that. You'll be-" Lightningstorm gritted her teeth, tears streaming down her cheeks as a wrecked sob escaped her. Because she couldn't lie. Her last words to her love would not be a lie. Not when she had never lied before. Played with words? Absolutely. It had always been her own brand of getting away with things. Of not being caught. After all, it wasn't her fault if cats didn't understand what she meant to the letter. A little quirk of hers that Firestorm had never been fond of, knowing how the calico used it to gain the upper paw. She still did it to tease her, of course. But never to hurt her. Never to lie. Today would not be the start of that. Instead she was left a bubbling mess. A wreck of a cat as she tried to coherently respond to the only cat that mattered in this desolate place. The only cat that saw her as more than that herb cat that served the clan. And it was all because of her. Because she had dared to dream that maybe happiness was possible even in this cursed clan. But she had forgotten her lot in life. The misery she was meant to suffer. The lonely, hopeless despair that was meant to be hers since that day she'd left a warrior to die in a pit of infection and rejection. This was her punishment, and she had brought it upon Firestorm for nothing more than her own foolishness. For thinking she deserved a respite. To find love. The Dark Forest had cursed her with kits... why had she ever dared believe it was a blessing? And now she was meant to care for these... these tools of death? These creatures whose sole purpose had been crafted for nothing more than the demise of the feline who had loved them so much she had wished them into existence? What sick bloody joke was this?! And then... she was gone. Too soon. Too swiftly for Lightningstorm to let her know that she'd loved her too. A yowl of anguish erupted among her sobs as she collapsed forward, feeling for a heartbeat. A breath. Anything that let her know that Firestorm wasn't dead. That this was all a cruel, sick joke she had planned. It was... not her style, and the medicine cat would bloody kill her for it, but she would be alive. And well. And she wasn't breathing. And her heart wasn't beating. Oh stars... her heart wasn't beating. She was truly dead. She had wished for a family... and was granted nothing but blood, misery, and orphans of darkness for the clan to raise. "She just wanted a family..." she mumbled, slowly sitting up as logic won over. As she came to terms with the fact that Firestorm was gone, and there was nothing she could do about it. "She just wanted a bloody family!" she repeated, her voice growing stronger as the tears continued, ire slowly creeping over the sorrow as she spoke, her face to the nursery's ceiling as if speaking to StarClan itself. "You bloody rats can't let anyone have a damn thing, can you?! You stick your worthless noses out of anything that could be remotely important, and then even when you decide to mess around look at what happens! Look at the misery you've wrought! Look at it! Is this what you call a wish fulfilled?! Is this what you call a job well done?! What is the point of you?!" Lightningstorm screeched, her hackles raising as she condemned them all. StarClan, Dark Forest... it mattered none. They were all useless before her eyes now. "WHAT IS THE BLOODY POINT OF YOU?! ANSWER, DAMN YOU!" she cried out, her voice breaking up, a cough rattling her entire body as she collapsed once more, sobs slowly turning into a low, hysterical laugh. "What is the bloody point?" @taillow [Bravebird] | @Dark [Firestorm] | @Fish [Spottedpaw] | @Starfall | @stag | @Poprock | @SuspiciousMindz | @naiad | @Weekend-Wondering |
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“If you must wait, Wait for them here in my arms as I shake” Spottedpaw had found comfort in Firestorm when she found no one else in the clan that was willing to pay attention to her. She had been cursed by awful dreams lately that tried to tell her that she was alone so she decided to talk to the one person who knew she existed. That she wasn’t just another face passing by among the crowd. A nameless cat that one wouldn’t notice if they disappeared one day. Thankfully Firestorm was willing to listen to her when complaining about this, about how the clan was ignoring her. Yer she knew she wasn’t telling the whole truth in her pain, she was watering it down, dancing awkwardly around what she really wanted to talk about. Bravery grew as she got comfortable in conversations, Spottedpaw was close to talking to Firestorm about something very important, something that really needed to be said—to be addressed. Then it happened. Firestorm was starting the kitting process. Spottedpaw had a hint of an idea that this was happening though she had never seen this before, an educated guess. Then she asked for burnet. Having hovered around Firestorm and as a consequence, Lightningstorm as well, she learned what that was meant for. “I’ll be right back Mommy! Stay strong!” She said before running out of the den to get her adopted mothers mate. Suppose she was technically her mother too but.. Spottedpaw stayed to watch the whole thing. It was really eye opening, honestly Spottedpaw didn’t know her eyes could get that wide or stay open for so long. This was somehow more shocking than seeing a dead body for the first time. Something stirred in Spottedpaw’s heart as she watched the kits be born. Something beneath shock and queasiness from watching this for the first time. “If you must weep, Do it right here in my bed as I sleep” Mommy, you are growing weak.. Please.. There was just so much blood. Something that she wished she would never have to see again in her life. A vow of pacifism to not see it, to not bring it in the world was something she silently swore but.. The one cat she care the most about in this world was losing so much of it. What was worse, to watch someone you love die in front of you, or to know that you would now gone on the rest of your life unloved. Spottedpaw wouldn’t ever truly know as both came to her at once. She wanted to scream at the sight of all the blood and beg.. Plead… Anything! But all this apprentice could do was watch in silent horror as she watched the fire in her mother drain away slowly. The only thing to comfort her were the ceaseless tears. “If you must mourn, my love mourn with the moon and the stars up above” Then her mother looked back at her with such a weak look. Did mommy know how she looked right now? A joke, a gentle smile. Her mother, despite all this fear, was willing to make light. Her mother wanted to still be the light of her life while her own slowly drained away. “Yes mommy...” She managed to choke out while trying her best to retain her composure. “I love you mommy, I’ll smile for you forever, ok?” She said as she forced herself to smile. Just please, if I could ask you for anything and nothing again. Stay with me mom… I love you too much to say goodbye. Goodbyes should never be left without knowing you can see them again, say it forever without it being the last time. This is how it should be. This is how the universe could be good. Yet it did not care. Hearing the yelling of Lightningstorm was almost too much for Spottedpaw. It was almost enough to break the armor the young apprentice has learned to build up over these moons. Yet the words of her mother rang through her head.. Smile like this. She wouldn’t But… It seemed like lightningstorm was too powerful of a foe. Her greatest enemy without never knowing it. How awful, how humorous. The universe just wanted her to remember.. You are alone. "She just wanted a family..." Spottedpaw crouched down as her smile died. Her ears pinned back, trying to get as small as she could so that she could hide from the medicine cat’s grief. Did they.. Was Spottedpaw’s fear about her mother correct? It seemed like Lightningstorm let out the secret that Spottedpaw was slowly coming to realize. You may adopt a mother all you want, Spottedpaw, that doesn’t mean she will love you. Lightingstorm was supposed to be her mother as well given Firestorm was her mate but yet she still speaks of just wanting a family. Spottedpaw wanted to bolt as fast as she could. That meant that all this time she wasn’t considered family. An unwanted kit was always meant to be unwanted. Who would ever want the leftovers? The crowfood replacement of a true family. Of true blood. If this wasn’t the case, why did Lightningstorm say that? Why did Firestorm start to forget about her? Spottedpaw could have died right there just from grief—From heartbreak. At least then she wouldn’t have to continue on this pathetic life that she called her own. “M..Mommy..” Spottedpaw muttered out tearfully. She wanted to scream at her. To ask her why. To tell her to get back up. Yet she found no strength to do this. All these could feel was grief and betrayal… And.. Jealousy. Jealousy that these kits were born, and hatred to them. Why couldn’t she have been one of those lucky vermin? To only have one mother was better than to have none. Even better than to be lied about being loved. Spottedpaw couldn’t figure out what she wanted to do. So instead she stayed low to the ground like the pathetic rag she was as she questioned everything about her life. What was she supposed to do now? To do without going on without this lie she deluded herself with. A tearful glance towards Lightningstorm as she screamed gave her no answers. She doubted Lightningstorm would love her. Not after losing her mate to these kittens. Not after never a conversation being said between the two of them. Spottedpaw needed to live through this world on her own. It was the only person she could rely on to not lie to her. Goodbye Mommy, I wish you could have loved me. “If you must mourn, don't do it alone” @Dark @stag @Poprock @naiad @Weekend-Wondering @Alchemist Kitsune @taillow @Starfall @SuspicousMindz |
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BRAVEBIRD she/her | windclan fury | 45 moons | active purrks Everything was achy and sore, mainly from tailing Lightningstorm the whole mink battle, but nothing that really kept Bravebird down. Still though she had decided to take it easy, taking to grooming her pelt off to the side of the camp. Things were relatively calm - well, aside from the boiling rage at RiverClan - and they seemed to stay that way. Until her eyes caught Spottedpaw sprinting from the nursery and disappearing into the medicine den... then Spottedpaw and Lightningstorm running from the medicine den and back into the nursery... |
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https://warriorcatsonline.com/forums...ictureid=41664 | Lightningstorm | Flock Together [Tier 3] - Inactive | Mind Reader - Active Even as Lightningstorm's world crumbled around her, she could hear her. Spottedpaw. Calling for her mother. For the healer's mate. For a cat who could not answer. Who would never answer again. At least the apprentice was in luck... She'd known the ginger tabby. That was more than the... the vile... horrible... Lapis hues shut tight in a desperate bid to stop that trail of thoughts. The things were her patients right now, weren't they? What a bloody laugh StarClan must be having right now. Letting Firestorm go through with a deal with a Dark Forest cat to have a family of her own, only to snatch her away from it no sooner had it been born. She wasn't allowed much time to think, however. No sooner had her eyes been closed than it began. The tirade against her. Words lashing out at her, each one a jab at her heart. Claws that would leave no scars upon her flesh, but would forever leave a permanent mark on her very soul. Because there was no way that this pain she felt was not akin to a cat knowing they would breath no more. No. She took that back. That knowledge would be a blessing to her now. WHY DIDN'T YOU DO SOMETHING?! But she tried! She did! There was... nothing she could do. There was no miracle she could attempt. She was not a star studded medic with infinite powers at her disposal. She was just a cat. Just a cat! Why did these fox hearts not understand that?! How come you didn't save her? She wanted to die. Because she was asking herself the same thing. Why didn't she save her? Lightningstorm knew, didn't she?! That the moment she agreed to be her mate, the moment she accepted she was in love with the overly confident, naive she-cat she was dooming her to death. To a short lived existence that would be scorned by the ones she had once loved. At least... there was one silver lining here, wasn't there? At least now only the medicine cat was the vile one. The only one left alone and ostracized by matters she could not control. By matters that she should have controlled. Because that was all that mattered. That was all that would ever matter. Just like it had with Cowtuft. Did you even try? Another dry, desperate laugh escaped the calico, her vision turning white as noise began filling her head. An empty noise that was far too crowded. A murmuring and whispering that might as well have been shouted straight into her ears. It was making it hard to think. Hard to breath. Because she should have tried harder. She should have said no. To hell with Firestorm's broken heart. At least she would have been alive. And she would have gotten over it in time. Lightningstorm was not worth the cost the tabby had paid. She knew that. So why? Why did she not try harder to turn her away?! Why had she been so stupid to think that there might have been happiness in the end?! She needed you - and you did nothing! Didn't Bravebird think she knew that?! Stars above, she had tried to be there for her. Hadn't even looked at the kits... at the... Finally, despite the ceaseless noise that pestered and hounded her, Lightningstorm opened her eyes, gaze landing on the squirming mass of fur. Her heart skipped a beat, a mixture of rage and warmth coursing through her. Rage because she wanted to hate them. Because she wanted to curse the wretched creatures that had killed her love... And yet she found herself unable to do so... Unable to look at the mewling kits and feel anything- You let them take her! -other than love. Love for the kits that had taken Firestorm from her... and yet... What else could she do? What else could she feel upon looking down at their innocent forms wailing for a mother they would never know? For a mother that... that she would never be able to tell them about, because her path was clear. HOW DARE YOU?! Lightningstorm knew. She prided herself for her logical mind and ability to see things clearly, yet emotions got in the way farm more often than she would have liked. Because she cared. A fact she loathed. How much easier would life have been if she hadn't cared when Cowtuft was exiled? If she had barely taken note of the way no one was ever there for her the way they were for each other? It had never been made more clear than the day Fallownose had died. True, cats had been cats. Worthless words had been spewed forth, gossip running rampant faster than the deputy's body could cool. And yet swifter than the tongues of the rabid attention seekers had been the unconditional love and support Twilightstar had been shown. Bravebird... Crowtooth... so many more. All surrounding the leader in a way the medicine cat had never known cats to do. How could she, when all she had ever known was that she was to handle her grief on her own? If she was even allowed a moment to do so, which she was now realizing might not be the case. She was not a cat, after all. Not really. Not as far as WindClan was concerned. She was merely a tool for their benefit. To be used up until she was no longer of use... and it seemed her time had finally come. The noise was getting louder. Calmer. More frantic. Desperate. Quieter. The swirling in her mind was confusing. Befuddling. It made her unable to think right, even as Hawkfur entered the nursery - no doubt having heard the infernal screeching that both her and Bravebird had caused here - and spoke to her, his words the final jab to her heart. You could have never prepared for this. A choking sound escaped the she-cat as she felt tears clawing frantically at the back of her throat, threatening to expose the truth. That maybe she could have prepared Firestorm for this. Because the stranger had warned her, hadn't he? That this pregnancy was all a game for the starless cats. But then she had dared hope. That maybe... just maybe... nothing bad would happen. That perhaps her Kitten would be safe. For how did one bring up the fact that one knew? About the wish made. About the steep cost she would no doubt be forced to pay? Would it have changed anything? Would it have made a lick of difference if she had confided in anyone about what she had known? The noise got louder still as she gazed at her kits - theirs for only a fraction in time - her heart shattering. Because it wouldn't have made a difference, no matter what path she would have taken. Not in the end. Firestorm was meant to die. And she... she had made only one mistake. She had believed for a second that maybe she had been too harsh. That maybe her wounded heart had muddled her views on the clan. That maybe she could belong. Because she did belong. With Firestorm. With Crowtooth. With Bravebird... but that had been a lie. Bravebird had made that clear now. If she wanted any semblance of a good life for these kits, she would need to leave. Have the clan forget she had anything to do with them. They wouldn't know. Not really. Firestorm had given birth to them. She would be the one who would be remembered as the mother. And Twilightstar would be free to choose another cat to land the healer's curse on in her stead. She could only pray that it wouldn't be one of her little ones. She was leaving precisely to keep them out of that life. Out of that misery. To have them be happy... and loved... even if it was just by her from afar. It hurt... More than she ever thought it would. How did her parents do it so easily? Turn their backs on her as they had when she had been so young? She could barely stand the idea of leaving them and they hadn't even opened their eyes. Maybe they had simply known. How cursed she was. Even from that young an age. A cat unworthy of love. Everyone else had seen it. Could see it. Everyone except- It hurts. The noise stopped. Almond shaped eyes turned round, surprise clearly etched on them as she turned her head around. Slowly. As if uncertain of what she had just heard. A gasp escaped her as she realized... the tabby... the tabby queen was looking up at her! But... But she had been- Surely no cat could survive such blood loss! Her shock must have been clear, as the green eyed molly's gaze turned worried, a frown marring her face. Asking Lightningstorm what was wrong... and... well... That was her name. But somehow she had a feeling that telling the pretty tabby that Well you see love, you're supposed to be dead would not quite fly with her just this instance. Or at any other moment, really. So instead, she did what she knew best. She grinned. A cheeky smile that tugged at her whiskers, the tear stained fur stiff, making her aware of the fact that she must have been crying mere moments before. Was that why her throat was feeling so sore? "Nothing's wrong, love. You just gave us a proper fright, is all. How are you feeling? Is your strength alright? You don't seem to be feverish... Your eyes seem to be proper bright and alive, too," the healer mewed, checking the queen thoroughly as she spoke. "I know it can't be easy, what with what you've been through. It's been quite an ordeal... and I've got to be honest here... Can't quite put my paw on it. Have I... given you any burnet already? You seem far better than any cat covered in the amount of blood you're in should be, but then, maybe you're just the stubborn type." A giggle escaped Lightningstorm soon after she said this, the idea far more amusing than it probably should be. Come to think of it, she probably shouldn't be joking right about now... but she just felt so... relieved. Confused. Displaced. But wonderfully relieved. Like all would be right with the world now. It must have been the fact that she had saved her patient. A very loved patient, judging by the cats surrounding her in the... den now. A frown marred her features momentarily as she turned to look around, the place wholly familiar and unfamiliar all at once. Shaking her head, she decided she could worry about that later. Moving this queen to a safer... less battle field worthy nest would probably be the best thing to focus on now. "So, let's hear it then. Think you can move a little? I know it's a lot to ask for right now, but... I would hate to leave your kits in this soiled nest. Not the best place for a nice, healthy, comfortable nap, is it?" she mewed, her gaze softening as it landed on the queen once more. "You there... the handsome tabby. Care to help out here? Not you though, love," the healer chirped, gaze landing on the lynx point while pointedly avoiding the older molly's eyes. "I think one stressful kitting is enough for the day, innit?" @taillow [Bravebird] | @Mica [Hawkfur] | @Dark [Firestorm] | @Fish [Spottedpaw] | @Starfall | @ellie | @Poprock | @SuspiciousMindz | @beau | @Weekend-Wondering |
Re: Just Hold On Like You'll Never Let Go [p]
Spottedpaw Peaceful ⋆ Dejected ⋆ Melancholic ⋆ Neutral Good“Life is fickle and self serving." Everything was so star damn overwhelming. Not helping the terrified feline was her fine senses given to her by her body. The slightest shift in the air her whiskers could feel like someone was shouting directly in her ears. Everything was just so loud. The screaming, there was only screaming and added to it was Bravebird… Spottedpaw felt each shout like a stab in her chest. Her heart hurt so much from pounding against the bars of ribs. It felt as if she could just die right here, and maybe a part of her wished that she would. No that’s not what she wanted, all it would do is bring her to the stars that she hated so much. Spottedpaw just wished that she didn’t exist. A waste of time this life was, it would have been spent so much better on— Overstimulation only found more stimuli for the fire. The fire. A soft voice. Was this some kind of cruel joke, some kind of waking nightmare? Why wasn’t she happy? Death was too good for her. Just like her It's just all so incredibly loud… Not her words, no, the torment in the little one’s mind. Was she going insane here? Was anyone else seeing this? No, the medicine cat was seeing this. Seeing this insult. All she could do was stay wide eyed. Her body rattled like the bones in a coffin when an earthquake came to say hello. Her claws dug into the ground just like the roots of a bitter, old tree refusing to budge. Tears still found it prudent to fall out of her eyes like they were on fire. Set ablaze from the emotions throwing themselves at the wall inside her skull. All that was lacking in this colorful picture was her words. And what was she supposed to say in this situation exactly? She wanted to be so star damn angry. Spottedpaw wanted to scream into Firestorm’s ears.. Yet… Was that how she truly felt right now? Was she angry at Firestorm. Yes, no, maybe? A cheshire cat grin found its home on Spottedpaw’s face as she relaxed her body, freeing her roots. Freeing herself from telling the truth. Who cared? They never started and wouldn’t. If anger was all that she could feel towards her ‘mother’ Spottedpaw needed to find something else to be happy about so she could fuel this fraud tugging at the edges of her mouth. The soft mewling was what drew her attention once more to the real world while the medicine cat looked over the walking dead. So tiny they were. That. Those things were what she was going to feel happy for. They got the family that Spottedpaw had been looking for and had failed to find. She would try to think about their happy noises when she felt a frown creeping up to persuade herself to fake it. They deserved to be happy. That was the simple truth of it all. Slowly her eyes drifted from the squirming kittens and to the storm.. The fire storm. Maybe… No not now. These words could be saved for later and they would age well with time. Like a switch, Spottedpaw stopped her forced smile and gave a soft smile to Firestorm before she got up from the ground. No one was going to notice her if she wanted to take a moment to escape. There were three cats who lost someone they loved and they needed to get her out of her own pool. They were sure to snuggle into her, cry and say how thankful that they were that she was back. All this commotion was just what she needed to make her silent exit. Carefully the young apprentice stalked out of the den and left the nursery. A range of emotions was assaulting this young apprentice’s mind and the moment she was out of eyeshot she thought of something. A part of this was not wanting to hurt Firestorm. Not to hurt her with how she truly felt. Maybe it would hurt the new mother to not see Spottedpaw there and despite how much she wanted not to care, a little bug did. Maybe fire would just think that she was too overwhelmed and wanted space. It would be correct. The apprentice wanted to walk off towards where the sun came up from, instead all she could manage was to walk behind the nursery and sit with her emotions. She was a mess and she didn’t know how to fix it. Did adults even know how to not be one? @taillow @Mica @Dark @Alchemist Kitsune @Starfall @ellie @Poprock @SuspiciousMindz @beau @Weekend-Wondering |
Re: Just Hold On Like You'll Never Let Go [p]
https://warriorcatsonline.com/forums...ictureid=50979 [Blazingstar] Former Leader of WindClan No Purrks BLAZINGSTAR AND PRAIRIESPARK CANNOT BE SEEN BY ANYONE OTHER THAN FIRESTORM IF DARK SO CHOOSES. THIS IS SIMPLY A POST FOR PLOT PURPOSES. The emotional turmoil was written all over his daughter's face as Prairiespark started howling silently to herself. A fluffy orange tail rested softly on the slumped molly's shoulders as she hid her face in the ground begging the very place she lived, to send Firestorm back. Gosh, how he wished she didn't witness this. Even in the afterlife, it was tragic to see your friends or family go. Blazingstar almost followed the spirit of Firestorm away, but his daughter tugged on his pelt. He couldn't ignore those sorrowful owl eyes. It felt like no time passed before some strange energy overtook the area. Both Blazingstar and Prairiespark looked up, seeing the revival of Firestorm. While Prairiespark trilled and padded over to study the group of kittens and mates, Blazingstar stood back and stared suspiciously. There was something he knew that Prairiespark did not. Something he'd learned with Crowtooth that he couldn't just let go. Was the reasoning for his power, the same as the revival of Firestorm? While he didn't sense the darkness behind her spirit, he couldn't help but think it was still there. They'd have to interact sometime soon. He'd need to drag her away and chat. He was suspicious. There was a new flame burning behind the eyes of the previous leader. He'd figure out the cause for this. @Dark |
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