[Dolomedes]

Rabbitpaw
He/him | WC Apprentice Tunneler | Moons: 7 | Purrks: Dreamwalker | Part Manx cat

After his freak out, or whatever it was that happened to him after his talk with Crowtooth, Rabbitpaw had shakily gotten to his paws. Still not completely sure that they would hold his weight in the remnants of his...of what felt like a near-death experience in his mind even though all that happened was a chat with Crowtooth and a fight with Lightningpaw. It was normal parts of life, Rabbitpaw wouldn't be able to get along with everyone all the time. Though it still made worry gnaw at his stomach and he chose to skip out on dinner that night. Instead he padded to the apprentice's den, Lightningpaw was in there but the ginger tabby turned away from when he came through the door and Rabbitpaw physically winced at the cold shoulder being thrown at him. Though he deserved it, after all he was the one in the wrong and had said bad things about Lightningpaw just because he was upset. Rabbitpaw wasn't a kit anymore, he couldn't lose his temper. Not that really remembers having done so before this, what Lightningpaw had said just struck a certain nerve that Rabbitpaw himself didn't realize he had until this.

He allowed Lightningpaw his time alone, obviously he didn't want to see Rabbitpaw so forcing an apology on him now wouldn't be the best course of action. Hopefully he will be more willing to listen tomorrow. What would Rabbitpaw even say though? How do you open that kind of conversation? And Rabbitpaw still didn't understand why Lightningpaw had been so upset with him in the first place. Crowtooth says that it was because Rabbitpaw was going too fast, did Lightningpaw not like it that Rabbitpaw was going too fast? It wasn't like Rabbitpaw felt like he needed to prove something, no, rather he was trying to not be a burden. Oh...wow...that sounded really depressing just saying it bluntly like that. He just means...his curse and all. That was a lot to make up for so that's why he needed to always be learning and getting better, though he also liked learning. Rabbitpaw liked knowing about the world around him!

For now, it was time to sleep. Tomorrow will be a new day, and he would be able to talk things out with Lightningpaw. And perhaps figure out what his freak out was earlier. Though that was probably, hopefully, most likely, a one time thing and not something that he has to worry about anymore. The blonde found his nest and curled up in it. It was cold. Though it always was, but for some reason it was a different kind of cold tonight. He misses Quailheart, he thinks, which is silly because Rabbitpaw sees her everyday around camp and doing things. But something is wrong with her, Rabbitpaw wasn't dumb, he could see that she was hurting in some way. At first he thought it was grief, and that was probably a fraction of it but there was something else there as well. He closed his green eyes and set his head down on his paws. He slowed his breathing and knew that sleeping was going to evade him like a rabbit on a chase tonight.



The next morning came both too fast and too early for Rabbitpaw. It was the movement of his fellow apprentices leaving for their daily stuff that woke him up. Though it still took more than a few moments for him to fully wake up and remember both his night and the fight before that. He looked over... though Lightningpaw seemed to be gone and as he looked outside he realized that it was late morning. Oh, so he was sleeping in now too, what a mess. Though given his night that wasn't too out of the blue honestly. He didn't really remember his dreams unless they were on the spiritual side of things but sometimes he wakes up and thanks the stars that he can't remember. he doesn't want to know what has him biting his tongue to not scream, eyes tearing up, and his heart racing as he has woken up like more than a couple times. Probably some remnant of before that only the very bottom of his brain remembers.

The apprentice sighed which turned into a yawn, which led him to stretching in his nest before padding out into the clearing and looking around for Lightningpaw. Who he found out in the clearing after some short looking. Umm, has he eaten yet? Perhaps having this chat over some prey wouldn't hurt, and also Rabbitpaw was very hungry from not actually eating any meal before bed. So rather than making his way towards the apprentice first thing, the blond turned and made his way over to the fresh kill pile to collect a rabbit big enough for him and Lightningpaw. Okay, enough stalling, time to clear this up.

Rabbitpaw slowly made his way over to Lightningpaw and set down the rabbit in front of the ginger tom. His green eyes moved from Lightningpaw to a different part of the clearing nearby so he wouldn't have to make eye contact even if accidentally. "I..I want to apologize. I wasn't thinking when I said that you forgot about Fallownose... I was just upset with what you were saying about me taking my own time to mourn the way I always have... and I just snapped back at you when I knew you were only trying to help. I want to try this conversation again, if you would be willing." That was a good start, Rabbitpaw thought but he wouldn't know until Lightningpaw gave his reaction to it.

[ @Lightningpaw666 - Lightningpaw ]
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