[Starfall]

Originally Posted by Celestial

@starfall
[ I would really not worry about it being late haha c: ]
[ Also, I’m not sure if I want Rowan to let fallen know she’s pregnant, what do you think? ]

Gracefully dipping into the den the ginger and white spotted she cat could sense his uneasiness with her name change. It was odd of course and certainly not something you heard everyday, but that’s not exactly the whole reason she was here. She came a few whiskerlengths I’m keeping herself close to the exit just in case he did anything that upset her and she needed to take her leave. She was stoic but fallenstars words shook her soul, his glares made her weak no matter how much she didn’t wanna admit that. She shuffled her paws awkwardly before lifting her gaze off the floor. She looked directly at him her green eyes searching his for anything, but his seemed clouded over with deep thought. Bad timing for sure. she swallowed the bile raising in her throat and sat down instinctively sweeping her long fluffy tail around her paws. Flicking her ears toward him she gave a little sigh and straightened up. “I’ve been meaning to talk to you lately” she said raising her chin just a bit so she could see the tom in the dark corner of his den.

She blinked a few times than sighed “I can’t help but feel, that I’m doing something to make you hate me” she breathed. Admittedly this was the topic she had wanted to start out with and end on a sour note, her pregnancy. If it meant she had to resign she knew that it wouldn’t really go over well for anyone. She would be too antsy as she had always been. Deputy kept her busy and rightly so.

[I think it would be interesting!
and Sorry for the late post ;w; ]

For a few seconds, and only a few, he managed to turn off the screaming voices in his head, nothing but a jumble of words that seemed to get louder, screaming chants, something he had yet to decode. He had learned this trick after the meeting with Snowstar, turn off everything, thoughts, emotions, feeling, all of it. This time, however, he felt it best he just turned off his thoughts. He angled his ears forward as she began to speak, she sounded....worried? possibly with a hint of exasperation. why? The leader licked his maw and narrowed his eyes. Did she not wish to be deputy anymore? Did she not like them siding with Thunderclan? Did she need to leave? Was she leaving? She couldn't leave could she? Would she come back? She won't disappear would she? Did she even want to come back? he shut off his thoughts once more, now nothing but low mutters, a constant hum in the depths of his mind. Why were they there? They weren't there before? When did they appear, he couldn't remember, many memories were burned without his consent. troublesome. She reminded him of her, Rowanflower, the golden pelt, he flowery scent, it hurt. Did he choose her as deputy because he believed in her, or because he was doing anything to have even a sliver of Honeypool with him? He didn't know, the answer was blurry.

As the molly stated her concern the ebony tom lifted a brow, lapis hues swam with confusion, though, they never lost their clouded, dull look. They lost their spark long ago. "Hate you? Why do you say that?" he asked, words pouring out of his mouth, this, he was conscious of. What he did during the ceremony, however, he was not. He couldn't recall showing her any kind of discust toward her as a feline, memories of the glares, the hatred, the bubbling blood and the rising bile in the back of his throat as he spat out the words 'Daisyshade will you become my deputy' were gone, nothing but black blobs, burnt memories that were just a few hair lengths from his grasp. He only remembered naming her deputy, her accepting, and the cheers, the loud, loud cheers that seemed to get louder every single time they called her name. It was like a taunt. Why? Why was this bringing back such hatred? It was a happy moment, most definitely for her, for her mate, for her friends and family, why did it make him so angry? Fallenstar readjusted himself, swinging his fluffy tail around his paws, and refocused his gaze on the molly. "Rowanflower, I think you're a little tired...why not go get some rest? Aren't you sick? You have been seeing Juniperpaw a lot recently." he stated, lifting his paw. He noticed things, everything, all of it. All of the happenings in his clan, the rumors, deceit, hatred, all of it.