ferally screaming because I hate writing full sentences out of the context of roleplaying or essay writing
(i obviously chose not to,
instead deciding to overuse the enter button.
i swear this isn't as long as it seems;
i'm deceiving you with empty space)
being a warrior meant
going wherever
responsibility
honor
servitude to the clan
answering to very few
it hadn't meant
going blind
indecision
discouragement
becoming "deadweight"
being lonely
things were unexpected,
to say the least.
"hello" to his sister
how long it'd been
from an unkempt vermin with disheartening apathy
to now,
which was nowhere
(it'd gotten him here)
sagechaser sagechaser sagechaser
soft and too good, innocent and chatty
kindly bitterness,
bitterly kind
(love, what he felt.)
not nowhere
pines, nettles, needles, leaves, moss, dirt, grass, shrubs, undergrowth
little birds chittering conversations and things rustling about for seeds
(one side dark)
dappling of new sunlight through the canopy
fresh dew from the late rains
burning
burning for more
hungering for something more (perhaps the left side)
disoriented, eye on his paws nervously
tripped twice
near-bumped into a tree, if not for his whiskers
breath caught in his throat
pattering of tiny feet, mouse
green eyes searching
only one finds something
shaky crouch
paw forward
off-balance
step
shift
twitch
blink
breathe
tense
pounce
wrong, wrong, wrong
away, it skitters into a hole
he watches, deflated
"not gonna cry over something stupid"
on his own
nobody else could help (unsurely)
"starclan send me strength"
(he'd come out here with the sunrise, now the sunset was lighting his way)
moremoremoremoremoremoremoremore
the call of a chickadee, high note-low note
reaches his ears
he inches, slow
paws light, cushioned by needles
sees it
(one eye)
desperately wants to catch it
light steps
light light light
will not mess up
not this time
head tilted to keep it in view
body listed to the side
pause
calculate
j
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m
p
feathers in his mouth
it won't sing anymore
eyes wide, elation
(he caught it.)
they'd see.
he saw something else.
(resilient.)
he was never weaker for it.
i'm hunting still, you know [va]
