Alright, time to put it out there.
Ik this is kinda stupid, but it’s been on my chest for a while and I rly don’t wanna upset anyone if this is something they believe to be pointless.
I possess the physical traits of a female. My transfer to being genderless is based solely on beliefs.
What are these beliefs, you ask? Well, in my world, genders have no meaning. Female x Female, Male x Male, Female x Male. It doesn’t matter to me.
Biologically, this is stupid. And I know this. But does it truly matter, what classification the person in question received, if’s you love the inside instead of the out?
This belief circle started about three? Years ago. Back then, I was determined that I had to like males and nothing else. After a rejection(no details) I began to get closer to my best friend(irl, still my bff today, female) I realized that maybe that wasn’t the real way things worked. Turns out she had a crush on another one of my irl female friends, and they exchanged feelings. Still too scared to kiss each other. Odd right?
Timeskip to a year later, and my confusion over genders and sexuality and all that stuff ting worse. Another one of my friends, imma call them EP, had recently switched from being a female to genderless, and changed their name. I was confused on this, and they taught me on it (:
Another huge timeskip, to when I realized I was pansexual. I’d gone through a few heartbreaks(and a divorce, but that doesn’t matter) both genders, but I was alright! That was when my view of the world began to form. It was messing with my mental state, believe me, and a handful of influencing figure in my life disapprove of LGBT and all that other stuff. So, I (partially) cut them off, and became who I am today.
I’m still going through the process, but WCO has helped me get a better understanding of things that were hidden from me growing up.
Hoping this doesn’t give away too much personal information or offends anyone,
-Fallen
Confession Time?
