Vent Central! {open for all}

[.Sunshine.]

 

Trauma and Mentel stuff- you can feel free to talk to me abt it my moods are in between red and blue- i need to get it out but i need to talk abt it

so a few years back i had a terrible toxic relationship with a best friend- she mentally damaged me- and blamed all her problems on me etc- i no longer have contact with her but i still have a burning feeling that its my fault and i know its not but it hurts- and my new best friend and i sometimes make each other mad on accident cuz he both have some issues- but weve know each other since birth and inseparable so we aren't toxic for sure! but because of our differences she easily tell me what i accidently say but for me i cant correctly communicate- and i makes me feel like im a baby and i cant do anything- and i know half of its trauma and half is autism but it hurts- i see my mom and my friends sometimes talk about how hard it is for me sometimes and i hate it! im sick of being reminded on how dumb i am! and i constantly get in fights with me mom and after i realize how much of an idiot i was to start them- i have a lot of self hate issues and i don't deal with them very well- and a therapist wont do anything for me- my friends parents are getting divorced and i feel like i have to be there for everyone about it- so on top of me hating myself i feel that i have to be there for everyone else and i dont wane talk about it because ill end up saying stupid and someone will get mad at me for it- i feel like no matter what i say and do its always wrong- my grandparents w ere very mentally abusive to- i also feel empty- my life is a loop and not much is new sometimes- but ill say all of this and then ill forget all of it Thren all the sudden im fine again- my Mentel sate is on the Virge of jumping of a cliff and all i do about it is joke it off- but i don't have any way to cope- well except praying that always helps me-.

[hades.]

Originally Posted by Sunii

I'm not therian, I doubt I ever will be but don't worry about it! I'm sure and I mean I am SURE that you will figure it out soon. Just try to not think about it that much (so you can, y'know, sleep lol). I have this great breathing exersize that actually helps me. I bet you heard "oh take deep breaths", but we all know that doesn't work. Breath like this-

Say it in you're head

*in 2 3, *quick pause*, out 23, *quick pause * and so on! I find it really helps when I need to just exit my mind for a second.

ty!

[Kieran.]

I have really homophobic parents and my sister keeps on threatening to tell them that im trans and a lesbian. Which will most likely absolutely ruin my whole life.