[panchiko]

Spiderpaw found her way to the back of the gathered cats. She was a little late to the meeting, but she was sure it wouldn’t really matter, since she believed it to be like any regular ol’ one. At first, she didn’t register that it was Lion’s body there in the clearing. She didn’t register that it was a body at all, just.. a mass -no, two-, blocking view of the floor. And then it hit her all at once that it was a body, and it was him. Or maybe it wasn’t him. A lookalike. Lionstorm couldn’t die… he was the only one she’d properly known for ages. since she was like,, six. he’d always been there like the awesome nerd he was. She talked and talked about him being Fartstorm, the stinky dummy, but it was all fun, jokes, games. The thought never once crossed her mind that he'd be gone, just like that…..

For a hot minute she didn’t move as one tear and then another slipped down her cheek, but the sadness quickly flamed into harsh anger. She dug her claws into the dirt to keep her from lashing out, feeling the earth stir under her paws. Her anger was fueled even more as she heard her clanmates argue about if ThunderClan had really done it and if it was worth fighting for. Really? Their leader came with two bodies of well-respected cats, with evidence that ThunderClan was to blame, and their first instinct was to refute the evidence and cower? What a joke. She was sure those Thunderjerks had done it or they’d had something to do with it. They’d pay for it, whether with a clan-wide attack or with Spiderpaw doing it herself, goddamn it.

She let the anger fester as the meeting continued, tuning out the world, and was subsequently taken aback when her name was called. She didn’t know who’d said it or why, and was flustered before she realized that Plumpaw was stepping forward. Although she liked the Plumster, they had little in common, so she put two and two together and figured it was finally their ceremony. She found it hard to feel excited, considering.. yeah. The apprentice stepped forward anyway, taking her place next to Plum. If there was any time to be excited it was now, after alllll of these moons, so she let herself muster up the bland thought of ‘hell yeah’. The curiosity of what her name would be sat neglected in the back of her mind.