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Originally Posted by Kunaiskrill

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She smiled and laughed. "Of course, Kestrelstar." She smiled. "I'm going to tell Snakeheart next, He's ought to know." She said, dipping her head. "It was good to see you."
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Kestrelstar dipped his head to his former apprentice, feeling himself just a bit lighter at the news. Kits was a good thing, as much as he had a distaste for the little rugrats whenever they crowded him in his den. Hopefully they would turn out to be great warriors like their mother. "You too, Nightleap," he replied in farewell.

Originally Posted by Dizerel

She shot a glance of worry his way at his joke. She was usually one for levity but joking about throwing away ones life (or lives, in this case) was not a laughing matter. "I hope you know. Any loyal Riverclan cat would give their own life before letting you spend one of yours. Myself included." She sighed. More than anything else about him, even that time he had gone crazy and blown up on her, it hurt her to see him be so nonchalant about his own existence. "The entire clan benefits from having you alive and well. You make the lives of so many cats better. At the very least, you make mine better" She states, moving in to brush her cheek along his flank, if allowed.

As she pulled back to let him explain his take on her bold request, she just kinda..... fwumped down onto her stomach, eventually rolling onto her side. If it had been nearly anyone but her, it would be appallingly casual for a warrior to do this inside the leader's den. "I.... I know its mouse-brained to ask but.... Im just really worried. After something that happened I feel like im less in-control of myself than usual. I want to do something that will make me feel in-control again." Looking up at the ceiling of the den for a bit, thinking to herself. "Though I am really glad you are back, too. I feel so much better and more in-control when im around you. Maybe its because im worried half to death that you are gonna do something risky..... Snakeheart told me he is gonna sick me on you if you dont take better care of yourself" A bit of a grin on her face as she recalled what Snake had said to her on their herb patrol together.

"I dont know I just.... things feel better with you around. Thats all." She mewls, turning back to her paws to stand up. "Ill respect your decision as leader. Though im still gonna want to try somehow proving to myself that Ive gotten better.... I just wonder how I can do so without being reckless."

The RiverClan leader had never been one for physical affection - it had taken him awhile to even accept it from Frozenberry (a thought that passed through him like a sharp curved claw now) - so his first instinct was to pull away. But instead he remained in place, parts of him tensing up before settling back into their relaxed state. There was something... something akin to a spark, but it wasn't noticeable enough to Kestrelstar for the tom to hold onto it.

Between the notion that she was worried about him and her rolling onto his den floor, Kestrelstar stifled a laugh. Instead, the RiverClan leader lowered himself to the ground as well, rolling onto his back and stretching his paws upwards towards the roof of his den. Laying side by side with his friend, the gray tabby tom let a sigh slip through his jaws. "Have you thought about taking on another apprentice? You've done an excellent job with Featherpaw - from the looks of it she is almost ready to become a warrior. If you'd like, since I know you're not going anywhere, you could help train those who seem to have revolving mentors." It was something she would be able to put her focus in, and at least Kestrelstar knew that if he was in her position it would help him. Having something to focus that much energy on was beneficial for every party involved.

Of course Snakeheart had. With a mrrow of amusement, Kestrelstar's yellow gaze followed Junipersong as she moved to stand back up. He followed suit and was soon on his paws once more. "Snakebite doesn't scare me. Although, I am trying to take better care of myself, really. I... RiverClan has been doing so well, and I like to think part of that is because of the personal changes I've made. I'm glad I came back, despite all of the obstacles that have been put in my way. And I'm glad... that cats like you still choose to put their faith in me." The den grew quiet for a moment as Kestrelstar glanced towards Junipersong. He couldn't imagine living life without the massive brown tabby, his friend and confidant, right up there with Snakeheart.

Glancing towards the entrance of the den, Kestrelstar sighed. "Maybe you could go around and share your ideas with every other cat in RiverClan," he joked with a laugh, taking a seat once more before returning his gaze to his friend.