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Swankit

She/Her - They/them

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CW: Minor symptoms of an oncoming panic attack

Swankit nodded in agreement with Timberkit’s conclusion. Perhaps her father was out hunting, or there was the chance that she just couldn’t see him right now. Of course, this was all fine and dandy until their leader called Timberkit followed by… her?

She could feel her heart slamming against her ribcage as Bumblestar then called her older brother’s name as well. She was going to be an apprentice? What about Sunkit? They were supposed to be apprenticed together! She didn’t want to… she couldn’t do this without Sunkit too.

Like a robot, Swankit slowly and silently made her way in front of the Stormcrest along with the other prospective apprentices. She was so nervous, did her fur look okay? Was Mommy here to watch? Where’d Daddy go? Oh no, she was going to mess up wasn’t she? She couldn’t do this, she couldn-

A thought came to mind as she looked at the looming figure of their leader. They turned back and looked over at where they’d seen their younger sister, Sunkit. Sending a pleading look her way, she then turned back to Bumblestar as if strengthening her resolve.

”Bumbly--” She mewed, voice coming out in little more than a squeak. Oh no, oh no, oh no. She messed up, she was going to bring shame to Mommy and Daddy… They would be disappointed in her…

”Bumblestar–” She mewed a little louder, afraid that all of the eyes of the clan would then be turned to her, judging her, waiting for her to mess up again to tear her to shreds. ”Can… Can Sunkit be apprenticed too? I– I don’t want to be apprenticed without my sister. She’s just as old as me, you know? It’s okay right?” She cringed away as she asked the question, fearing rejection, fearing the leader’s disapproval. Legs trembling, she fought the urge to run away back to the safety of her mother in the nursery before adding a little ”Please?” for good measure.

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