[Luna16]

Originally Posted by Wingnettle

Halfpaw
10 moons | Maine Coon half-breed with an orange and gray tabby coat.


Halfpaw walked restlessly in the clearing, making wide rounds as if he were patrolling the clan walls himself. Damn Starclan, why did things have to be so hard?
He had made a long and dangerous travel all on his own just to see his real, former home without the aid of his parents. And yet he was just a little apprentice looked on upon everyone who passed by.

The outsider...
The son of the traitors who chose to abandon Thunderclan..
...He doesn't deserve to be here...
He will steal our resources while growing up, then come back to his coward parents and leave us...
He has no sense of loyalty...
He's a menace...

So many voices screamed in his head. Stop you! It isn'true!
He shook his head this side and the other, squinting his eyes in hope that all the words and the faces would disappear from his head.

He thought Starclan would still watch over him!
This is not true. The star warriors had conducted him here. They had played with his life, and now he was paying for it. He thought his head might explode any time.

He felt tormented.

...Maybe, his place wasn't here?
Maybe... his loyalty didn't count. For anyone. For the stars even, maybe.

With his ears dangling sadly from his skull, he headed to the apprentices' den. Another mockery to the fact that despite his age, he hadn't been made a warrior yet. They want to test him before, he was sure of that.
But now, he was exhausted. He had no energy.

The reality was as clear as ice in a cold day: the warriors, at least the older ones, didn't want to teach him. They avoided him, silently refusing their tasks and making away with it.

The pouting tom was heading inside, not to cool himself from the strong greenleaf sun, but to hide himself and his face from the rest of the clan.

He still felt an outsider after 7 moons spent here.

(Open!)

Sunnystreak

Sunnystreak looked up from where he and his sister were sharing tongues when he noticed Halfpaw's distressed pacing. He watched as the young cat slipped into the apprentice's den, and frowned. He could only imagine how he felt and what he was going through. "One sec." He told Strawberryfur, touching his nose to her's before bounding after Halfpaw.

As he approached, he slowed down. He didn't want to startle him. "Halfpaw?" He called into the den. "Are you okay?" He immediately regretted the question, it was stupid. How could he be okay? It was obvious that he wasn't. He groaned at his own stupidity. "I mean...do you wanna talk about it?" He tried again. This whole...cheering others up thing was usually Strawberryfur's forté. But he felt like he had to try. Even though he'd never experienced something like Halfpaw has, he did know what it felt like to feel like you constantly have to prove yourself. And the frustration and despair that comes with that burden.