[finley]

' not again, please, god, not again. '

welcome to sunflower's kit finder!! as a pre-warning, this post will include themes of miscarriage, post-partum depression, histrionic pregnancy disorder, abandonment of a spouse, and shaming of a pregnant female. if any of these subjects bother you at all, click off now! don't feel guilty, your mental health is way more important than this finder <3

with that aside, i'd like to tell you a bit more about sunflower. she's a new shadowclan queen, joined very recently. she used to be an outsider. sunflower is literally her name- she's bright, sunny, and keeps a happy disposition and smile on her face at all times. for a while after her mother died, she fell into a deep depression, not leaving the makeshift den she had for herself and barely eating. but we'll get more into that in her backstory!

when you wake up next to him in the middle of the night

sunflower was born as an outsider, raised as an outsider.. and her mother died as an outsider. at the time of her mother's death she was around 15 moons, and fell into depression after it. in her depression, she turned to other outsider cats, seeking comfort in becoming mates with some of them. she suffered two miscarriages while an outsider, nearly passing away from the second one. eventually, her desperation for kits caused her to develop histrionic pregnancy disorder.

histrionic pregnancy is a condition based off of histrionic personality disorder. it's a disorder in which the affected is completely convinced they are pregnant, to the point of even developing pregnancy symptoms. this usually occurs from desperation to be pregnant if one cannot.

how did she get these kits? well, after realizing she didn't actually have kits and was fooling herself, sunflower went back into a depressive period and turned back to outsiders. eventually, she got pregnant again. the cat she had gotten pregnant with was disgusted by her, leaving her alone. sunflower feared that if she had another miscarriage, she would pass away, so she turned to a clan for help and joined shadowclan.

with your head in your hands, you're nothing more than his wife

hiii !!! i'm finley, and i'm going to yap for a second. you probably know me- i play the well-known riverclan mca cobwebfern and the lesser-known hawkbrave kit crowkit in windclan! i've been on the site for a couple months over a year, and i play sunflower :] the idea for sunflower first came from rani over on the wco discord, actually! the idea of a queen who had suffered so many miscarriages she developed histrionic pregnancy disorder intrigued me, and i decided to begin playing her! the thing is- sunflower has gone through so much, and i've never had a queen.. so i decided to pass on some luck to her and she has unexpectedly got actually pregnant, with a successful pregnancy!

so, what do i want from this? since the pregnancy will be successful, and the first ever kits sunflower will have, she will dote on them endlessly and keep them as safe as humanly possible. i would like them to not go missing! so if there's any chance that that might happen, please refrain from applying to this finder. <3

and when you think about me, all of those years ago

you will need to be active! i want sunflower's kits to stay active and not go missing!! i don't have hypokits at the moment- so feel free to make your own appearances up! sunflower is pictured above, and the outsider she had been with is a braided brown tabby. these kits will not have a father figure- sunflower will have to raise them on their own. now!! my favorite part!! name ideas!! if you wish, i can pick names, but some ideas are anything related to weather- sun might name her kits rain, cloud, mist, anything of that variety :]

you're standing face to face with "i told you so"

i've bought baby boomer for sunflower, so her kits are able to be born at any time! your applications will be due at december 25th, at 12:00 pm est. i'll pick kits around then ^_^ your application may not be accepted !! please don't be mad if i don't choose you ;w; any applications later than that will not be considered! her kits will be born sometime in january after i return from my holiday :3

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' really? you're sure? stars... '