[Beaan]

- Wolf Fadingpaw -
- He/They - 15 Moons - ThunderClan Apprentice -
- A large dark brown tom with a darker back and lighter underbelly, a missing hind leg -
Wolf is not out as demi yet !!

cw; self-hate, negative thoughts, mild ptsd

The feeling of fur pressing against his side caught his attention. Wolfpaw turned their head, facing Maplehaze. Maplehaze. Haze was at his side. Comforting him, being there for him. Not judging. Not making gossip out of half-truths. The tripod help back tears, leaning slightly on the warrior. At first, they thought haze was a weird and annoying warrior. Now he knew they were a friend. A trusted companion. More than anycat had done for him lately.

Then bumblestar struck. She yelled at him to stop talking, and landed a blow on him. The tripod stumbled back, ears pinned against his head. Blood dripped down from their muzzle from four claw marks. He didn't cry. Didn't complain. Didn't protest. He deserved it after everything that had happen. It could be worse. So he held back the scream that built up in his throat, just wincing in pain, entire body trembling.

Green eyes were widened with fear as the leader loomed over him. He shrunk closer to the ground, wanting to sink into it at this point. They clenched their jaw, each word coming out of the leader's mouth echoing in their head. Then came the names. His heart was beating so fast he felt it would burst out of his chest.

It wasn't his fault he had been given their names. He wanted to tell them that. Mama had given him the name Wolf. She was gone too. The only piece of the family he once had. Aconiteheart, one of his closest allies, the starclan cat who gave him knowledge and taught him before his predecessor did, gave him his assessment and name. Those were being ripped away from him like everything else. A new name. He had to choose.

But then the leader changed her target. Maplehaze. Wolfpaw felt tears running down his face as she spoke with the same venom to the warrior as she did him. His heart sank at her final verdict. Haze. The cat he was now closest to, ordered to leave. Because of him. Another thing he messed up. His fault haze was being exiled. The cat who stood by him when nobody else would. He wanted to scream. "Its not his fault! He did more than I ever did!" but he couldn't. The words were a lump in his throat.

And haze went willingly. No. Wolfpaw let out a sob, watching as the warrior left. "I-I." he tried to speak. There was so much he wanted to say. But he couldn't. So the apprentice watched in horror as their only friend and companion left.

And bumblestar turned back to him. Granted him an ultimatum. Change his name and stay in a clan that would never trust him again, or refuse and have a chance at exile or death. His brain was foggy as they attempted to speak, single letters stuttering out. Given the choice of loosing his life or the only memory and connection to cats he loved. Being told to choose a name that was cruel enough to please the leader. One came to mind. One that represented what he had done, how he was being pulled away from every good thing he had done, away from love, away from his role, everything. Wolfpaw slowly stuttered out the name, one letter at a time.

"F-Fa-adingp-paw."

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