[graves]

Originally Posted by pupy

Dear Starclan, the hostility that Pinewatcher showed at that very moment. They didn't understand, yes, but was it really their fault? They weren't blind, they didn't understand the other cat's struggles completely. Creekgaze wasn't an empath, how could they not comprehend that fact? Sure, they despised the treatment they got for their own disability, but they wouldn't say that they wouldn't even try-- if it would not hurt the other feline, they'd say it was honestly piteous. Bristling at the sudden and unwelcome aggression, the enby still flinched at every harsh word. If they thought the blame was on their shoulders purely because they were blind, so be it. Creekgaze's uncharacteristic attempts at kindness were pointless, it seemed.
"Don't you think I get that?", they whispered, venom practically seeping into their voice, still very much wounded by Pine's harsh rejection of their condolences. "I may not be blind, but I think I would get the feeling of not wanting anyone's pity. Cut the crap, okay? Starclan made you this way for a reason. Scorchpaw is gone for a reason. We can't understand it, but it just is. How do you really expect cats to change? It's just how they are. They don't get cats like you, like me." Tail lashing, they sighed. "You can only learn. You can only change. If you don't like the way things are, try to do something about it. I don't know what you expect from me."

They werent one to know how to deal with kindness. They didnt mean to ignore Creekgazes comfort, they werent used to that sort of thing. They were used to not many being there for him, so the comfort was new and unrecognizable. They might not have been able to see, but they could still feel every flinch, tremor,and shake that they caused against the other enby. Pinewatcher whipped their head around to face Creekgaze, eyes staring daggers into the others as if they knew exactly where to look, eyes wide and in slits. ¨You dont have the weight of another death simply because you were born a certain way.¨ they said the words slowly and more of in a deep growl. ¨I cant change what I want to change,¨ he wanted to see for Starclans sake, he wanted to be able to see something, to know what colors looked like, to know what Shadowclans land looked like from the way warriors described. ¨And its Screechpaw.¨ Get the name right. They wanted to cry,the wanted to do nothing but apologize for yelling, to just endure the physical comfort that Creek had to offer.
But their pride told them otherwise.