[Brilliance]

Chrysanthemumshade found one thing good about being in riverclan for the time being...the sun was nice. Indeed very nice. As she found an excellent spot to sun herself. The light glowing on her pelt, and making it appear a dazzling sparkle of silver with the tabby stripes appearing like a work of art on her. Her eyes remained shut, contently on her paws, as her tail swished lowly below the rock that she was relaxing on. The others were busy with their duties, but she was relaxing. Relaxing was good. More than good. She was content. A part of her felt useless to everything and everyone around her, so she stayed atop this rock in order to not be a botherment. She wasn't asleep, but if her eyes were closed, she would appear asleep. And, that way, she would appear unbothered. The she cat breathed softly.

This was good. Relaxing had put her mind at state, and that's all she wanted to feel. No cats to impress, no cats that she feared would judge her. None of that. She hated being a ''kiss up''. Only, she wasn't being a kiss up. She liked having the thought of many friends. She liked when others liked her. Wasn't that normal? She was quite positive being herself would ruin her chances. Her mother constantly told her to be someone else, feed upon their interest, and become their friend. Become the cat they want to see. It's all she ever known. And, the relationship with her mentor? Chrysanthemumshade was ready to get up and gag. Those parts of her life were gone. But, she felt they would always be haunting her. A piece of her past. A large part of her past that constantly would be plaguing her.

She sighed. She wouldn't let her mother's voice echo through her mind on such a wonderful day. At all.

@Doodle