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Originally Posted by itsyaboirussetbird
Drizzleflower took in a large breath before letting out another audible sob, trying as hard as she could to look at Hawkfeather without falling deeper into her anxiety. It began screaming at her. You're not good enough. She'll never love you. She's too good for you. You're not good enough for her. She let out another sob. "I-I-I'm s-sorr-sorry." She sobbed, in hysterics.
"I'm wo-worth-worthless. I'm u-u-usel-le-less." She covered her ears with her paws, shoving her nose into the ground, still sobbing, dizzy now, her self-loathing stronger than ever.
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That wasn't good! The words coming from Drizzleflower's maw were ones that Hawkfeather had heard before, but never said. Not "I'm sorry," but "I'm useless." There were times, of course, that she had felt pretty darn useless but she had never said that out loud. It would only hurt everyone around her more. "You're not! Don't think for a second that you are!" There was a surprising fierceness in the she cat's tone. But there was still that bubbly tone behind it. Like she couldn't even force herself to be angry. And her eyes still held a determined, sharp, and friendly sparkle to them. It was funny how much emotion could be packed in those sapphire-blue optics. "Now then, don't cry! It's fine! Once all this is over, we can go do something and have FUN!" It was amazing. It was magical. It was like all thoughts of worry had faded from her head and left only an excited sparkle of glitter. Like the pink rose she had been thinking of had suddenly overtaken her mind with a bang and now once again, all she could do was be happy. Being serious could only last for so long with the she cat. It wasn't who she was. It wasn't who she was...
at all.