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Originally Posted by king kaleb!
@blue jellie
the walk back from the meeting had been nothing but tense silence. it had been the only time daydream had been distinctly aggravated at flashpaw. despite what other cats said about them, they actually had alot of patience and understanding, especially towards flashpaw because they understood clearly what she was going through. but after that.. they just couldnt understand. being able to look heatherfur in the eye and say that riverclan deserves a war. heatherfur - the very cat flashpaw had been training aside for moons. had gotten to know, had basically been raised around through her apprenticeship. it left a bitter taste in their mouth at the mention of her disloyalty. they didnt speak for most of the walk, unless it was small talk like "almost there" or "right turn" and such. besides that, nothing but the crunch of leaves filled the air as they entered camp together. |
Every fraction of a second of silence was a slice through Flashpaw's heart. She kept her eyes down and wanted so desperately to curl up into a ball and cry. She didn't want war. She didn't want to drive out all of RiverClan, or something crazy like that. She just thought that Fallenstar was a bad leader. But of course, speaking had gotten her in trouble once again. Speaking had been something only her best friend had been able to get out of her. And yet, in the end, speaking had gotten her out of breath. And in the end, her best friend had died at her paws. She was always the problem. If she just kept her mouth shut and followed her normal aprentjce duties instead of making Daydream give her an easier life, then their life would be better. Her best friend would still be alive. So many people would be happier if she had never existed at all. Maybe she should step down. At least then she would be out of Daydream's life. All she would have to do is learn how to hunt again. But then she'd have to have a new mentor, and make their life miserable, too. Why couldn't she just have a normal life? Why couldn't she be small and insignificant and die alone instead of negatively affecting everyone she talked to?