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Originally Posted by shortstack
"You left me."
"You left me alone that night. I didn't see you at all that night, not really. Not until we were about to leave for ShadowClan. You said you were proud. And then you left again. You left me alone. So so so alone."
Now her voice was trembling. Her heart was in her throat and it felt like the very world was crumbling to pieces around her. First, the invasion. She still didn't have an explanation for why StarClan would let such a thing happen. Why? Why whywhy? What was the point of it all? How could such suffering be justified? Second, Brindlejaw. She really didn't know how to feel about him. She held him in such high regard before but now the sparkle had dulled. She heard what her clanmates said about him, that he did nothing for the clan. She didn't know what to think about it. All she knew was that everything hurt. Hurt hurt hurt. Her head was clouded - it was hard to think straight.
@ Shimm
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Brindlejaw lowered his head and gaze, now staring at the dirt floor. His mind went back to the night, everything was so clear. He was sleeping in the warrior's den and woke up to screaming and snarling. His first thought went to the queens, elders, and kits. Runningspirit was paralyzed..then he had to carry her and lead everyone to the river. He ran back to save the remaining queens and during the chaos, he swore that he saw his apprentice with someone. The will to get the ones who couldn't fight to safety was in his mind to where it never occurred that maybe he should have saved Yewpaw too. It hit hard, he shouldn't have assumed but he was so caught up in fighting coyotes to save the kits...was his reasoning good enough to not be an excuse? Did she know what he went through that night?
No, it didn't matter, she matters more than any explanation he had.
"I am deeply sorry. I saw you with someone and assumed that you were safe, in good paws. I shouldn't have assumed." He allowed the molly to see the regret and remorse on his crooked features. He truly knew that she would never see him the same.