[Starfall]

Sunnybunny
He/Him
@FrostyGalaxy

The moment she responded after a pregnant pause, he felt the breath he was holding in forcefully vacated. Making him shakily inhale. As fast as the answer left her maw, his cheeks burned, his eyes stung. It felt like someone was standing on his chest and all of a sudden everything was blurry, and his cheeks and chin were wet. Forcefull hiccups pulse through his body as he did his best to comprehend that the universe just deemed him unable to meet the family he'd set out to find. All that hope, all that buildup, just for it to be ripped away. A quiet confirmation that he wasn't allowed to have what he'd been working for. A butterfly landing would be louder than the silence in the den as the tom silently did his best to hold in his emotions. Did his best not to completley break down and sob. Crying was hard enough.

Until it hit him. Why? Why should he hold it back? Why did he have to be strong when he deserved to be sad, deserved to cry? In that split moment Sunnybunny sat himself down, looking up at Larkstar, his ears drooped, and any sense of composure used to say "I guess it wasn't meant to be." before letting himself sob. Grief for the family he could have had. Mourn what he wasn't allowed to enjoy, and what could have been.

He didn't hear what the molly said, he didn't care. His head was beginning to hurt. His chest hurt, his eyes stung and his fur was getting wet. He'd be cold. It wasn't her chance to mourn, she had her chance, this was his. This was his moment of sorrow and a part of him felt ugly for ignoring her woes. Ugly for acting selfishly, wanting this moment to be his moment, and his moment alone.