[Doom]

Originally Posted by graves

dappledghost was..flattered, that he wanted to get to know her. their friendship had been a little one sided, ghost simply listening to chestnut vent with small iintervines, but otherwise keeping to herself. she was a listener, offered her advice, and was always proud to make him feel better by the end of their walks. and it wasnt like she didnt enjoy it either, because she did, she really liked helping people, including chestnut. but he wanted to take this friendship a step further, so she would indulge. "im not the easiest to figure out, i suppose." she chuckled, but if you listened closely, there was no humor in it. "i have had everything planned out for me, from who my mentor would be to how long id train each day, so the eventual tom my parents will find worthy to have kits with me to further our blood line. there is a reason my coat is so vibrant," she loved her parents..but they were a but over barring at times. each and every second of every day was planned and scheduled out. "thats why i like our walks. you in my life wasnt planned by no one but myself. i know whats to come of my life. i will be a warrior, and then a mother to a mate that was chosen for me, have kits, and pass on. i know whats to be expected," she spoke so casually, just accepting her fate. she kept her gaze forward as she walked, letting the brittled grass of the floor stab between her toes harshly with every step, but she walked unbothered. she finally turned towards him with a soft smile,

"that is why life is so plain."

chestnutfall’s eyes faded as dappledghost explained her life. it was strange knowing some cats’ lives were so strictly planned out since the beginning, it almost made himself feel stupid for trying to be so tightly scheduled. it made him sad. she...didn't deserve a life like that. he leered off in the distance, humming thoughtfully. “my life was quite the opposite, really.” you could hear his voice shaking slightly out of nervousness. he’d...never spoken about this to anyone before. “everything in my life happened by surprise...and never a good surprise. this is why i strive to live by a schedule, so that everything happens according to plan. even though i know not everything can be planned...” his brows furrowed momentairly, but he shook it off and forced a small smile. taking a deep breath, chestnutfall gazed back up at dappledghost. he chuckled awkwardly, hoping to lighten the mood. “so you aren't allowed to choose things for yourself? i understand parents want the best for their children, but we all grow up to be our own person.” his eyes began to wander the leaves overhead, still smiling. “you should be allowed to make your own decisions, dappledghost...especially about certain elements, like your future ma-...loved one.” the tension in the air changed, but maybe it was just him. or a breeze. or something. “isn't that the fun part of life? having the freedom to love whoever and whatever you wish? whether that be a hobby or another cat, it should be something we personally chose, don't you think?”

it was strange hearing himself talk about this sort of thing...he lost everyone he ever loved, so he felt hypocritical in some way. this was something he wanted to improve about himself, though. hence he spoke about it. but only with dappledghost.

only with dappledghost.