ThunderClan: Life Before 2023's Sinkhole

[GreyStorm]

Graykit saw Crystalkit and walked up and sat down next to her. "Hi," she said cheerfully

[duskfire1]

Larkfrost

Her ears perked as she shot a curious glance at the fleeing Emberpaw, her ears flat and tail fluffed in fear. She sighed and realized what she had done. Her emotions took control again, and she made a mistake. She got up, glancing around. She knew her son had fled the camp, but she was torn between following after Emberpaw or her son. Shaking her head she padded after Emberpaw, knowing that she could go after him later. As much as she loved him, she knew sometimes cats needed their space. Maybe she'd look later, or maybe she wont. She was quite the indecisive cat, she knew that for a fact. She stopped, turning with pricked ears as she watched Wildspark silently leave, sorrow hollowing out an even bigger hole in her heard as she knew that the clan was broken. It could be mended, but for now, it was broken.



@RiztheHuntress @error @Angelique
(error and Angelique, for the mentions. And Riz, if you want, you could ping me in the ThC apprentice den, or you don't have to if you want Emberpaw to be alone :3)

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Oatkit

He flattened his ears at Dogbark's remark to his sister. He knew he just wasn't old enough yet to retreat to her den with her (assuming that was what his sister was going to do). He glanced up at her, giving her a small nudge to show her that he still loved her. He didn't judge her, for if he ever had a flurry of feelings, she would likely do the same, not judge him. Accept, and love him, like he does her. At least, that is what he thought.



@Pheasantflight //
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Dirtfoot

He sent quizzical eyes to the cats around him as he turned to leave, padding quickly away to sit somewhere in the clearing, hoping to use that time to register what had just happened.



[ Open, ping me in the clearing if you want to interact with him. Friends, enemies, don't care lol ]

[bailu]

-> Ivypaw

The world was melting around her, drowning in grief, and injured by raised voices that ranted continuously. Fire. Fire was everywhere, not physically, but everywhere in Ivypaw's mental world. Cindersky was the smallest fireball, Foxpaw and Shiningskies were incoming blazes that you couldn't stop, no matter what. Raising her face- her tears had long dried up - her vacant green eyes sought out Dogbark, perched on the Thunderwillow. He was keeping his common sense and kept his sanity throughout the whole violent meeting, how did he hold on like that? Her legs and arms felt like thin sticks as she got to her paws, her ears once again flat against her ears. Melancholy settled over her expression as she took one last anguished look at the Clearing, at Shiningskies, at Cindersky, before vanishing into the apprentices' den, hiding herself from view.

| Ivypaw has left the meeting!

[Rizo]

Emberpaw burrowed further into her nest, the fear from the meeting still coursing through her body. She kept her eyes closed tight, trying to keep the scenes out of her mind, but the yelling and anger, the sight of Aspenstar laying dead in the clearing, played over and over in her mind. Even her mentor and the warrior she looked up to as a mother figure, they had fought. Right in front of her. Now Lynxfuzz is going to think I'm a weakling... He won't want to train me anymore... She hid her face in the moss, hoping it would hide her tears.

[ @duskfire1 I'll take you up on that ping suggestion! ]

[WinterMara]

| Softpaw of Thunderclan |

Softpaw looked around as cats began to leave the meeting, one by one, Dogbark, Cindersky, Cornpaw, Wildspark, Ivypaw, they all had left. Part of her wanted to scream, at Silverpelt and at herself. She noticed Cinderpaw, she wanted to go over to comfort her fellow apprentice, but something stopped her, the fear of messing up. What if she just made things worse like she always had, what if that would happen?

A voice rang through her head, maybe her own, she wasn’t, entirely sure to be honest, but one thing she did know was that it was telling her to not even bother trying. She wanted to help, someone, Cinderpaw or Cindersky, Cornpaw, Wildspark, but she couldn’t, she’d probably just make it worse for all of them. This was the first time since she’d gotten to know Bluepaw that she let herself get close to another cat, and it was multiple, and she felt as if she failed them all at these past meetings.

Her lovely little imagination was at it again, not death thoughts but, ones of cats yelling at her, fun. The molly just, headed back to the apprentices den, trying to get her imagination to cut it out, but it just continued, honestly, it was hard to say if she even had control over her own mind anymore, everything was like impulse. As she laid on her moss bed to go to sleep, she looked at her shell, and once again, she felt like crying and screaming, there was one cat who she failed and, honestly, regreted the most.

Bluepaw

That name was stuck in her head and, honestly her heart too at this point, and she couldn’t get it out either. She shouldn’t have lashed out at him, she shouldn’t have pushed him away, she shouldn’t have been so stupid and mousebrained. He was the only cat in her life who had stuck around, even Aspenpaw had left, she knew her brother never meant it, but he left too, so Bluepaw was truly the only cat who stuck around, and she shunned him.

You messed up

You messed up

You messed up

Softpaw wrapped herself around the shell in a more, defensive way, somehow, in some way, she found out how to mess up at everything social ever. She called Cindersky her mom, she didn’t show enough appreciation for Wildspark, she didn’t even really adknowledge her friends, while she knew her refusal to be close to others was a big culprit. . .she also didn’t feel as if she had a choice, because she had a feeling that maybe, just maybe, instead of her closed off insecurities, it was just, her stupidity, and, she went to sleep with that thought.

Stupid asshole.

| Softpaw has left the meeting!

[WinterBug]

Mallowkit poked his nose fearfully out of the nursery, eyes wide. Was he in trouble? Was he going to be exiled, or killed, like in the story that elder had told him? But then, Mallowkit saw something that would surely haunt his dreams forever.

Aspenstar's body. Aspenstar's dead, mangled, horrible, lifeless body.

Mallowkit screamed and broke down into tears. It wasn't so much that he was upset the Aspenstar was dead, he didn't even know his leader, but that sight was the worst thing he had ever seen. And his leader was dead, which was far from comforting. Mallowkit buried his whiskered face into his white paws, shaking from head to tail and absolutely sobbing now. He felt sicker than he had felt in his life, not that his life had been very long. He could vaguely hear a voice dismissing the meeting, but everything was fuzzy and all Mallowkit could hear was the beating of his own heart. He couldn't think, couldn't move.

[Jayvines]

~ Mistpaw ~

Fully returning her lost sibling's embrace, Mistpaw wrapped her thinner tail around her sister in return as she stayed buried in her fur. She smelt of forest, and strange cats, and... something icky that she didn't really like. Crinkling her nose just slightly, Mistpaw pulled her head out just enough to start grooming her sister's fur. She had been gone so long, but she was back now! She should smell like home instead of out there! The young molly was on a mission and hummed contentedly as she proceeded to try and get all the "weird" scent off of her.

Cloudykit was saying that it was bad out there... Filing that fact away in her mind, she mentally affirmed her current stance that Thunderclan was the only safe place in the whole wide world. If it wasn't, her sister would have had adventure stories not really bad memories of 'out there'.

[ @poppy. @error duskfire1 ]

[whatzername]

Greysquirrel | w/ the fam | @Jayvines @duskfire1 @error @poppy.
The warrior had been alerted of something happening in the clearing from hearing it. He quickly padded out of the warriors' den to see his former mate and his two children speaking to another cat. A familiar scent reached him, but he couldn't pinpoint it. He walked to his family, curious. Is everything- he was cut off when he spotted the pelt of Cloudykit. His lost daughter. He choked up and froze a few feet away from the group of kin.

Cloudykit? he whispered just loud enough to draw attention to him from nearby cats.

[Shade.]

@sid
@Mistletoe
@Naiad

Rosepaw was surprisingly level-headed, despite the growing unrest around her. She held Sagepaw close, hoping they would calm down. She tried not to look at Lotuspaw. She needed this meeting to end.

Sagepaw's mentor seemed to be attempting to calm Sagepaw down. Rosepaw appreciated it. She stayed quiet, assuming that he was only here for Sagepaw and her feelings didn't matter at the moment. She just nodded her head respectfully.

Sundust was calling out to them. She wanted to go but she wasn't sure how Sagepaw felt. She smiled at her future mentor sadly qbd turned to ask Sagepaw but then Dogbark announced the meeting was over. That meant...that meant that dreaded announcement was postponed. She felt a lot if strange emotions as she followed Sagepaw off to bed. There was a but of relief, she had time before her good relationships with everyone were potentially tarnished. But mostly frustration. It all hit too close to home. Just when you thought the end was here it backed away. Just when she thought her bad luck would be her doom she miraculously survived. Like life was toying with her. Sometimes she felt like shouting at the sky to just kill her already! Rosepaw wanted the cobwebs to be tipped'off quickly, no claw-twisting.

[bubble[error].]

Sharpkit was thinking of his future mentor now. Who? Blackjaw? Ivywish? Ummm... He did not know the warriors very well. Oh! What if the leader takes me as an apprentice? Sharpkit knew it was possible. Or maybe the deputy would be his mentor. He was so focused on his future that he didn't hear anything that as coming out of anyone's mouths. (open)