just a photograph - private

[meraki]

Originally Posted by tinyalienboy

[typing this at school, sorry its so short]
jaiden blinked, reading over the document slowly. his eyes widened even more than they were before, jaw falling open once he completely read over each word that was typed. he turned to leigh, his throat becoming closed up. tears threatened to appear before he frowned. jaiden set his laptop to the side and sniffled, standing up. “thank you.” he looked down and shifted from side to side, coughing into his arm. the cuban boy glanced back at his journal and crossed his arms over his abdomen, hugging himself sadly. “did you read my journal?” his eyes were questioning, but he did not seem angry. he looked to be saddened by what he had found out about the other male, emerald orbs watering. a single tear made its way down his tanned cheek, leaving a dark streak.

(looks fine to me !)

Leigh smiled softly and paused with his typing. He glanced blankly at the screen, then glanced back over. "Just the first page," he answered sheepishly. "How do you want me to react about it? Do you want sympathy or for me to pretend i didn't read it?" He asked respectfully. Leigh for one hated people to be sympathetic when it came to his excessive bullying, but he wasn't sure about Jaiden.
"And sorry, by the way. For reading it. I hate that I did it. But I hope that flash drive kind of; pays you back. I felt like reading that was like stealing from you. But I stole something that I can't return, so I gave you that." Leigh said with a small shrug, his eyebrows creasing as he saw the tears. "Hey don't cry," he said.

[lio]

Originally Posted by meraki

(looks fine to me !)

Leigh smiled softly and paused with his typing. He glanced blankly at the screen, then glanced back over. "Just the first page," he answered sheepishly. "How do you want me to react about it? Do you want sympathy or for me to pretend i didn't read it?" He asked respectfully. Leigh for one hated people to be sympathetic when it came to his excessive bullying, but he wasn't sure about Jaiden.
"And sorry, by the way. For reading it. I hate that I did it. But I hope that flash drive kind of; pays you back. I felt like reading that was like stealing from you. But I stole something that I can't return, so I gave you that." Leigh said with a small shrug, his eyebrows creasing as he saw the tears. "Hey don't cry," he said.

the demiboy turned away, quickly wiping his tears away. don't cry, you insecure idiot, he thought,
biting his lips and staying silent for quite some time. jaiden sniffed, finally deciding to push his hair back to reveal the full scar that stretched the length of the right side of his forehead. "i'm not angry. but i don't want pity. i've had enough of that from rodent-brained therapists that i've been sent to. i'm glad you spoke the truth," the cuban said, his voice quiet. he stuffed his hands into his back pockets as to not fidget like a frightened deer. he jumped as he heard a ting! from his phone. digging it out, jaiden read the newly recieved message under his breath.
hello jaiden, how are you? it's been a little while,
hasn't it? well, i was wanting to say something that i've never been able to say before. i am in love with you. you never leave my thoughts, and truthfully, i don't want you to. i get butterflies every time your name so much as appears within my mind, and i want to be with you for as long as i can. i just have one question: do you love me back? —maya merriz
jaiden dropped the phone, hands shaking. his eyes widened and he took multiple steps back, stuttering nonsense. all of the oxygen seemed to be kicked out of him. his stomach twisted wildly, like it was being stabbed repeatedly. the cuban gasped and quickly turned around, running towards the door. he needed out. he needed to run. the tall boy speedily unlocked the door before sprinting from the door, not even caring that he was not wearing any shoes, his beanie, his glasses or anything.
he just needed to escape.

[meraki]

Originally Posted by tinyalienboy

the demiboy turned away, quickly wiping his tears away. don't cry, you insecure idiot, he thought,
biting his lips and staying silent for quite some time. jaiden sniffed, finally deciding to push his hair back to reveal the full scar that stretched the length of the right side of his forehead. "i'm not angry. but i don't want pity. i've had enough of that from rodent-brained therapists that i've been sent to. i'm glad you spoke the truth," the cuban said, his voice quiet. he stuffed his hands into his back pockets as to not fidget like a frightened deer. he jumped as he heard a ting! from his phone. digging it out, jaiden read the newly recieved message under his breath.
hello jaiden, how are you? it's been a little while,
hasn't it? well, i was wanting to say something that i've never been able to say before. i am in love with you. you never leave my thoughts, and truthfully, i don't want you to. i get butterflies every time your name so much as appears within my mind, and i want to be with you for as long as i can. i just have one question: do you love me back? —maya merriz
jaiden dropped the phone, hands shaking. his eyes widened and he took multiple steps back, stuttering nonsense. all of the oxygen seemed to be kicked out of him. his stomach twisted wildly, like it was being stabbed repeatedly. the cuban gasped and quickly turned around, running towards the door. he needed out. he needed to run. the tall boy speedily unlocked the door before sprinting from the door, not even caring that he was not wearing any shoes, his beanie, his glasses or anything.
he just needed to escape.

Leigh saw Jaiden's expression change faster than that of a cartoon character's. "Jaiden?" He questioned, grabbing the phone and reading the text. He frowned in confusion but ran after Jaiden, sprinting down the hall. But as soon as he took that first running step, his knee blazed in agony and he let out a surprised gasp, but recovered quickly and managed to ignore the blazing pain as he ran after him with a limp. "Jaiden!" He called, his dark hair messed up. He was wearing a simple large grey t shirt and black jeans, and no shoes; just socks. After a bit, he finally caught up, and limped over to Jaiden. "Hey! Hey just-just breathe, okay? Breathe." He instructed to attempt to calm him down.

[lio]

Originally Posted by meraki

Leigh saw Jaiden's expression change faster than that of a cartoon character's. "Jaiden?" He questioned, grabbing the phone and reading the text. He frowned in confusion but ran after Jaiden, sprinting down the hall. But as soon as he took that first running step, his knee blazed in agony and he let out a surprised gasp, but recovered quickly and managed to ignore the blazing pain as he ran after him with a limp. "Jaiden!" He called, his dark hair messed up. He was wearing a simple large grey t shirt and black jeans, and no shoes; just socks. After a bit, he finally caught up, and limped over to Jaiden. "Hey! Hey just-just breathe, okay? Breathe." He instructed to attempt to calm him down.

jaiden broke down, sobbing quietly. he trembled violently, heart racing within his chest. as leigh arrived, the cuban flinched, moving further from the other boy. he curled in upon himself, half hidden in shadows that came from the darkness outside. jaiden took a shaky breath, refusing to look at leigh once he managed to stop crying. his arms tightened around his frame, making him seem small and vulnerable. he bit his lip and glanced at leigh, only his green eyes visible. "you're limping," he observed, nostrils flaring. shadows danced among jaiden's face, contorting its image as cars and other things passed by. he sniffled, clearing his throat and frowning. the boy wiped his cheeks and turned to where half of his tear-stained face was visible.

[meraki]

Originally Posted by tinyalienboy

jaiden broke down, sobbing quietly. he trembled violently, heart racing within his chest. as leigh arrived, the cuban flinched, moving further from the other boy. he curled in upon himself, half hidden in shadows that came from the darkness outside. jaiden took a shaky breath, refusing to look at leigh once he managed to stop crying. his arms tightened around his frame, making him seem small and vulnerable. he bit his lip and glanced at leigh, only his green eyes visible. "you're limping," he observed, nostrils flaring. shadows danced among jaiden's face, contorting its image as cars and other things passed by. he sniffled, clearing his throat and frowning. the boy wiped his cheeks and turned to where half of his tear-stained face was visible.

Leigh crouched down to be level with Jaiden. He nodded at the comment, and replied, "You're crying," in a simple manor but not in a rude way. He wanted to ask what made him break down, but stopped himself from asking too many questions. So he sat in silence, not moving closer to Jaiden but not moving away. He sat cross legged, looking at the ground and his knee hurting bad, but he didn't let it show in his face. Jaiden had enough problems; he didn't need to be another. Plus, as far as Leigh knew, the demiboy wasn't a doctor.

[lio]

Originally Posted by meraki

Leigh crouched down to be level with Jaiden. He nodded at the comment, and replied, "You're crying," in a simple manor but not in a rude way. He wanted to ask what made him break down, but stopped himself from asking too many questions. So he sat in silence, not moving closer to Jaiden but not moving away. He sat cross legged, looking at the ground and his knee hurting bad, but he didn't let it show in his face. Jaiden had enough problems; he didn't need to be another. Plus, as far as Leigh knew, the demiboy wasn't a doctor.

the boy whimpered quietly, slowly calming down. he covered his face again, however, wanting to keep the embarrassing splotches of tears fron being seen. jaiden stayed quiet, save for the occasional sniffle or two. after quite a while, he began to speak. yet, he wasn't really speaking. he was singing. his voice was smooth, but he fell unsure whether or not the pitch was correct. his tone was nearly silent, as he only desired to be just loud enough for leigh to hear.
"you are my sunshine, my only sunshine. you make me happy, when times are grey. you'll never know dear, how much i love you," he winced as the word love was spoken, "please don't take my sunshine away." the cuban wiped his eyes and sat
where he was, curled into a small ball. jaiden bit his lip and ran a hand through his hair, though he still didn't face the other male. with a large, uncertain inhale, the boy shuffled closer to leigh until their shoulders touched.
his face was downturned, but tearstains were slicked along his birch cheeks. his eyelashes were clumped and still wet. jaiden's eyes were dull and frightened, a darkness settled within them. his bottom lip poked out, like he was pouting, while his hands fidgeted upon his lap. the boy took a long, slow breath before speaking.

"i'm afraid of falling in love."

[meraki]

Originally Posted by tinyalienboy

the boy whimpered quietly, slowly calming down. he covered his face again, however, wanting to keep the embarrassing splotches of tears fron being seen. jaiden stayed quiet, save for the occasional sniffle or two. after quite a while, he began to speak. yet, he wasn't really speaking. he was singing. his voice was smooth, but he fell unsure whether or not the pitch was correct. his tone was nearly silent, as he only desired to be just loud enough for leigh to hear.
"you are my sunshine, my only sunshine. you make me happy, when times are grey. you'll never know dear, how much i love you," he winced as the word love was spoken, "please don't take my sunshine away." the cuban wiped his eyes and sat
where he was, curled into a small ball. jaiden bit his lip and ran a hand through his hair, though he still didn't face the other male. with a large, uncertain inhale, the boy shuffled closer to leigh until their shoulders touched.
his face was downturned, but tearstains were slicked along his birch cheeks. his eyelashes were clumped and still wet. jaiden's eyes were dull and frightened, a darkness settled within them. his bottom lip poked out, like he was pouting, while his hands fidgeted upon his lap. the boy took a long, slow breath before speaking.

"i'm afraid of falling in love."

Leigh frowned sadly, moving so he sat next to Leigh. He awkwardly put one arm around him, not minding the physical contact but more like he wasn't sure wheather or not Jaiden would want that or not. He listened to him sing and felt his own eyes tear up, but he blinked them away before they spilled out. "Hey, it'll be okay. It'll be fine. If you're afraid of falling in love, then fall in love with someone who trusts you just as much as you trust them." He said. "And there's no problem with being single, friends make up for that." Leigh added with a soft smile.

(Eeek its short sorry !!)

[lio]

Originally Posted by meraki

Leigh frowned sadly, moving so he sat next to Leigh. He awkwardly put one arm around him, not minding the physical contact but more like he wasn't sure wheather or not Jaiden would want that or not. He listened to him sing and felt his own eyes tear up, but he blinked them away before they spilled out. "Hey, it'll be okay. It'll be fine. If you're afraid of falling in love, then fall in love with someone who trusts you just as much as you trust them." He said. "And there's no problem with being single, friends make up for that." Leigh added with a soft smile.

(Eeek its short sorry !!)

[it's fine !!]

jaiden flinched as he felt the arm around him,
but relaxed enough to cautiously melt into leigh's embrace. he's only comforting you. there is nothing to be afraid of, he thought. the cuban gnawed on his lip and chuckled breathily as he heard leigh speak. "yeah, i guess," he looked down, "i just— i guess i just have so many issues because of the abuse i had received. my father always came home drunk, immediately beginning to beat me if i did the slightest of things wrong. hence why i usually refuse physical contact. however, i've always had the fear of either not being good enough or of being used and replaced. maybe that's why i begin to panic if even the word love is brought into a conversation." jaiden subconsciously pressed himself closer to leigh, absorbing the other's warmth while sharing his own. he looked up at the dark haired boy, eyes full of sadness and fear. "and hey, look at me now, i'm cuddling a near stranger that i've only met today after completely freaking out at least three times."

[ :00 we could do a thing where like leigh gets angry at jaiden after they've been friends for like three weeks and he raises his hand like he's gonna smack jaiden but the poor boy completely begins trembling and crying and hiding in a corner, curled up and covering his head begging for leigh not to hurt him, idk just a thought. ]

[meraki]

Originally Posted by tinyalienboy

[it's fine !!]

jaiden flinched as he felt the arm around him,
but relaxed enough to cautiously melt into leigh's embrace. he's only comforting you. there is nothing to be afraid of, he thought. the cuban gnawed on his lip and chuckled breathily as he heard leigh speak. "yeah, i guess," he looked down, "i just— i guess i just have so many issues because of the abuse i had received. my father always came home drunk, immediately beginning to beat me if i did the slightest of things wrong. hence why i usually refuse physical contact. however, i've always had the fear of either not being good enough or of being used and replaced. maybe that's why i begin to panic if even the word love is brought into a conversation." jaiden subconsciously pressed himself closer to leigh, absorbing the other's warmth while sharing his own. he looked up at the dark haired boy, eyes full of sadness and fear. "and hey, look at me now, i'm cuddling a near stranger that i've only met today after completely freaking out at least three times."

[ :00 we could do a thing where like leigh gets angry at jaiden after they've been friends for like three weeks and he raises his hand like he's gonna smack jaiden but the poor boy completely begins trembling and crying and hiding in a corner, curled up and covering his head begging for leigh not to hurt him, idk just a thought. ]

(im thinking that leigh might have anger issues so he could get really mad about something? )

Leigh sighed sadly. "We're both messed up. You get beaten by your dad, i get beaten by a group of kids at school. But we're alive, aren't we? And that's all that matters." He pointed out, rubbing his shoulder. "You can't control your feelings, it's okay. I can't either. But we can learn, can't we?" Leigh sighed. "You'll be okay. Not perfect- nobody is, but you'll be okay."

[lio]

Originally Posted by meraki

(im thinking that leigh might have anger issues so he could get really mad about something? )

Leigh sighed sadly. "We're both messed up. You get beaten by your dad, i get beaten by a group of kids at school. But we're alive, aren't we? And that's all that matters." He pointed out, rubbing his shoulder. "You can't control your feelings, it's okay. I can't either. But we can learn, can't we?" Leigh sighed. "You'll be okay. Not perfect- nobody is, but you'll be okay."

the cuban demiboy thought for a moment before deciding that the phrase actions are better than words would be better. he sighed and wrapped his arms around leigh in a hug, as if saying thank you. his eyes closed and he gradually began to relax once again, arms slightly tightening around the other boy. "i've never had a hug before," he whispered, pouting.

[aaaaah omg its so short sorry also yess that could work]