Monster - Story - Gore

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SEVERE GORE, SUCH AS MURDER, LIE AHEAD. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

this was originally going to be a biography but i decided to just make it a story instead. may or may not ever be finished. have fun reading this demented story. character details may be put in later. do not go by my word, of course, as it is a low possibility.

based rather loosely from this song.

hate. that was all i felt. how dare he go and choose the other? how dare he leave me for another tom, a kittypet at that? he stole everything from me! my heart, my love, my soul. i am utterly nothing, now. just a mere furball, full of flesh and bone. i am useless. he has taken it away. cut me from my innocence.

it makes me want to kill.

i won't, of course. oh, no. all i shall do is wallow in this self hatred. in this silence you have left me in. i won't eat, i wont sleep, i will not speak. i will do nothing. sitting alone, in camp, every day. wasting away every single little moment of my life.

i truly couldn't care less if i died.

you padded towards me, your delicate paws lightly grazing the forest floor. your ocean gaze pierced my soul, anger rising within me. you truly thought i would forget? you truly thought you'd be worthy of forgiveness? how silly of me. if i hadn't known better, i would have thought you were a bee-brained piece of fox-dung. oh, wait, you are.

you made me like this. you sent me into this darkness. you forced me to become what i am. a miserable little kitten, unable to get over my ex, who so happened to be my first love, and my first mate. you.. you said we'd be together till the end of our days, growing to elders, adopting a kit or two and living as a family. what happened, orchidspring? what happened to all the promises? what happened to the tom i trusted?

you knew what you had done. you knew i was there, panicking because i saw you with another tom. sharing tongues, nuzzling, whispering sweet atrocities to each other. i heard what you had said. "don't worry, he'll never find out. and if he does, he'll forget and find another. i love you more."

heads up, i haven't forgotten. i haven't found another. and i certainly don't love anyone else.

i hate you, but i love you. i want to gruesomely murder you, but i want to just be by your side once again. like he is now. yes, i saw you sneak from camp, thinking you were hidden within the shadows. you never padded towards me. no, of course not. i am but a ghost now. nobody shall care if i disappear.

i slipped silently from the camp. the entrance dug into my thick fur, snagging the ungroomed locks. your scent, still fresh, led me towards where i knew you'd be.

with him.

jealousy. hatred. love. bloodlust. i just want to kill. to rip my claws through the flesh of your petite, feminine body. his, too. you will both suffer.

i stalk from the shadows, a malicious glint to my amber eye. the pupil narrowed, all darkness hidden within. a voice spoke within me, yowling and screeching. do it! do it! kill! kill them! my claws unsheathed. i stood no chance in a battle, seeing as i had become scrawny, barely living. giving them a scare, would do.

or not.

i leapt at the fat furball of a kittypet, hissing and growling. i tore at his ginger belly, swiping and clawing. everything was a blur. all i saw was red, all i heard were his howls of pain. whimpers, begs for mercy.

he shall receive none.

long after he choked his final, bloody breath, i was ripped away by my scruff. orchidspring held on tightly, his gaze a tsunami of seething fury. growling, i attempted to push him away, but he only dragged me from the kittypet's garden, where his new mate's lifeless, mauled body lay, twitching ever-so-slightly. orchid was stronger, i had no choice.

as soon as my scruff had been let loose, i sprung away from the white tom. he glared at me, yet blocked my only exit. "why?" his voice was a deeply furious snarl, a scowl distorting his features.

"i'm a monster," i had replied, feeling almost as if my anger had melted away to a single drop. i felt eerily calm. i swept a tongue over my blood splattered paw, locking my scrutinizing eye upon his. "you made me this way, and you know it. don't deny, orchidspring."

his grey tail flicked. silence hummed between us, our gazes never breaking. "aspentrust, i do not love you anymore! you did not need to resort to murder most vile. jealousy has fogged your mind!"

all i did was chuckle.

"i loved you. i truly did," i began to circle him, "my first mate. my first crush. my first love. my first everything. you took it all from me, so i took it all from you!" i growled and crouched, my tail lashing. ears flattened against my head, i watched his movements intently. "all i need to take is your life. you can go join that big lump of pure laziness in the non-existent starclan, orchid. goodbye."

i sprung, yet flew right over his form. aha, an old trick. quickly spinning, i caught him off guard as he so stupidly searched for where i must have gone. silently, i crept towards him, then whispered in his ear. "you're as stupid as a kittypet."

slash.

he fell to the ground, limp and lifeless as blood poured from his throat. i cackled, lifting my head to the moonlit sky. with a mental hiss, i scented a feline nearby. i sped away, truthfully surprised at my strength. i'm supposed to be dead, starved to death. shaking my head, i sped on. more time to worry later.

i stopped at a water source within the territory, quickly dipping any blood-soaked area of my body into the water, cleansing myself of the deep red fluid.

i am a monster. and i cannot be saved.

twitching my nose, i dried myself before heading towards the silverclan camp. i settled within my nest and slept emptily.

the morning after was dreadful. clanmates yowling, pushing each other in a fit to see what was at the center of the camp. ah, i see. orchidspring's body. releasing a mournful, yet puppeted yowl as to not seem suspicious, i caught the eye of a small, brown and white tom. he looked to be 13 moons. most likely a newly appointed warrior.

i stared for a moment, nearly becoming lost within the labyrinth of yellow-green orbs. blinking, i looked away, only to realize that he was trotting towards me. holding back a scowl, i stared down at him, watching as he nodded a somber greeting to a molly he had passed. "i know what you did," he spoke, his voice a soothing hymn, not to soft, yet not too loud. what was i thinking?

scoffing, i bent to his level. "i certainly do not know what you mean," i wracked my demented brain for names, but his was never​ revealed from the depths it was hidden. "eaglescream," he began, pausing before moving on, "i saw you murder those two cats. orchidspring and callileaf."

"you know that flea-bitten furball's name?"

"of course. i was orchid's apprentice, after all. i became a warrior a moon ago."

"lovely. now, little kitten, run along and keep your little trap shut, got it?"

he snickered, cocking his head. "or what? i truly don't care if you hurt me. all i want to do is help you. save you from the monstrosity you've become."

"i don't need help. go save someone else," i scowled. lifting a paw, he slowly pressed along my flank, smiling a feline smile as he found a scar from long ago. he moved forth as to feel along my ribs, then my spine. watching him warily, i resisted the urge to attack him. "eat, and i shall leave you on your own for today."

huffing, i nodded before shoving his small frame away, about to retreat into the shadows before i realized he was watching me. of course, he wouldn't let me go on without eating!

i picked a thrush and frowned, growling at him as i passed before crunching at the prey. delicious juices flooded my tastebuds, and i finally realized just how hungry I'd been. the thrush was gone in heartbeats.

i caught 'eaglescream' staring at me again before settling beside that molly from earlier, smirking devilishly. i rolled my eyes, scoffing almost silently. flicking my tail, i knew a new challenge had come abroad.

and it was gonna be a whole lot of fun.

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